A junior with undiagnosed Asperger’s, alone flapping his hands a thousand people I want to be but cannot be me, I continue to flap for my answers confusion is all that registers. I have no friends, I try to buy them sweets as if that would do it I had forgotten how many times I wore a dunces cap, behind the line a teaching student Mr Pinder I think Steven, was his christian name stood in front of me with the wizened old headmistress Pinder, quietly said you don’t have anything behind your eyes but many years later I now have a universe behind those eyes. I can escape with measured breathing and leave my vacant body I have the all seeing eye the third eye a pineal shining Christ centre that puts me upon any planet in any number of unclaimed universes so Mr Pinder wherever you are now I am from time to time a heretic.